Some things we've learned with Baby #2

So "EJ" our second son was born back on New Year's Eve 2019. For our first, Tate, I posted a Music Monday for him and later shared about the drama of his birth. It was my most read post ever.

Oldest kids notoriously get more attention, pictures, and celebration than the siblings that come later. I've wondered in my own mind if having blog posts about Tate but not EJ is an example of that. Thinking it through however, I think it is a little simpler. While Tate had some unusual aspects to his early life, EJ has been pretty normal by comparison. And normal hasn't felt "blog-worthy". 

EJ has been a joy and welcome addition to our family. He certainly adds to the dynamic of our family. Going from a family of three to a family of four has not been a little thing though. So as I've considered it, I've come up with a few blog-worthy things I appreciate because God gave us little guy #2.

1. I appreciate the busyness. "Appreciate" is a relative term here. Going from 1 to 2 kids doubles the work. We thought we had our hands full with Tate. Adding EJ to the mix has certainly stretched us. But it is rewarding work and a beautiful responsibility. We don't take our kids for granted. In the day-to-day grind of our parental routine, we try to survive the busyness. Then every so often, moments come along that make you appreciate the craziness.
   
   
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   I appreciate the differences. Tate's story had drama.  And as he grew, he ended up a little behind developmentally when it came to crawling, his core, and walking. We got him on the right track thanks to a local facility. EJ had a pretty simple birth. He seems to be right on track with his physical development, figuring out crawling and using it to his advantage. Also along these lines - Tate was born pretty bald, with only peach fuzz on his dome. EJ has had a full head of hair at birth and will no doubt need a haircut way earlier than his brother.
   
   
   
3.  I appreciate the bonds of family. Before, it was two parents caring for, working with, and loving on one child. Now, there is more of a peer-to-peer element with these brother siblings. Even at this early stage, it has been cool watching them as they interact as brothers.

I should add that my wife has been a rock-star as we've had to figure out this new world of two kids. There's been plenty of stress, especially with this pandemic. She's worked hard to cover so much and God has given us enough grace to manage. And that's all we've really needed.

Christians and Leaders and Christian Leaders

Having devoted much of my life to studying God's Word, I will occasionally stumble upon a randomly interesting observation. One such observation came up in my prep for yesterday's sermon and since it's been an entire month since I posted, I figured I would try fleshing it out some more here.

My randomly "profound" idea? 

Christians have often had a weird relationship with their leaders.

It is as if we are on a constant search for the person God is raising up "for such a time as this". Whether it be a political candidate or a new pastor/spiritual leader, we are often all-too eager to fall head-over-heels for someone. And the higher the stakes, the higher the pedestal we put them on. 

This then leads to leader-worship, where some start to believe that since God's hand is on that individual, since he sovereignly put them in that position, that makes them untouchable. They are infallible, impervious to mistakes, you can't really criticize them because God's favor has rested on them.

Maybe we don't theologically believe those things are absolutely true but practically we treat them as such. We will jump all over the smallest misstep of an opponent while turning a blind eye to exceptionally problematic issues with our leader(s). 

This is not a new phenomena. Israel's history is littered with kings who operated according to such beliefs. In the middle ages, there was the doctrine of "the divine right of kings". The American concept of "Manifest Destiny" can probably linked to this concept too. 

When we buy into this perspective that venerates our leaders, we fail to understand that God's favor is not some sort of force-field that makes them invulnerable and perfect. 

Even if God's divine appointment could be proven, it is not cover for anything and everything they might do or say. Read about David's life, especially the last part of his reign. Or Joash in 2 Kings 11-12. It is all too easy for imperfect human beings to lose their way. 

Only one leader in all of human history has a spotless record. And he was God-in-human-flesh. And he was crucified.

Let me just wrap this up by encouraging us all to do two things:

1. Pray for our leaders. Christians are commanded to (1 Tim. 2) of course. Yet we should do so because we realize they are put on a pedestal that comes with a heavy weight. We should pray because we realize how easy it is to trip up. 
   
   
2. Don't be blindly loyal to anyone but Jesus. If my favorite pastor or my preferred political candidate messes up, I should be wise enough to recognize it and give voice to my disapproval. Jesus alone is worthy of our complete allegiance because he has not and will not let us down.

We have often had a weird relationship with our leaders. Doing these two things will allow us to live within the tension of supporting those God has put over us but not blindly following them into whatever folly they may be chasing.

Music Mondays: Arresting Lyrics - Miscellaneous Edition

So while the previous posts in this series have been categorized by groups, early on I knew there were a bunch of singular songs that were all powerful. This is a mix of Christian and secular music that I find emotionally profound.

7. "How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?" - Everything, Lifehouse.

This is a line that is repeated several times as part of the chorus of this apparently slow ballad. It turns on a dime into a rock anthem at the four minute mark. It is at that point with the bridge "You're all I want, you're all I need. You're everything. Everything" that this charming lyric you'd heard over and over hits another level.

6. "If his grace is an ocean, we're all sinking." - How He Loves, David Crowder Band

Much attention was given to the mini-controversy regarding the changing of the original lyrics from "sloppy wet kiss" to "unforseen kiss". That unfortunately takes away from a genius metaphor that the original writer, John Mark McMillan, penned in this line. I'm hard pressed to think of a better description of God's matchless, infinite, amazing grace.

5.  "I am brave, I am bruised. I am who I'm meant to be. This is me." - This is me, The Greatest Showman

There are other parts of this song I could include. But after watching the vocalist "get arrested" herself by this line. I have to go with that. This song lends itself to being adopted by a whole host of people groups. I personally find it a worthy expression of how we all are made in the image of God and have inherent worth, value, and beauty.

4. "No one else in history is like you. And history itself belongs to you" - Jesus, Lover of My Soul, Passion

One of the great overlooked worship songs of this century, it has always resonated with me because of it's simple approach and honest expression of surrender. And this line is a reminder that our Savior is the Alpha and Omega, Lord of all history.

3. "Prone to wander, Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart, oh take and seal it. Seal it for thy courts above." - Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing

I'm pretty sure this is the first song and first line to ever "catch me" emotionally. I think that line has convicted thousands of Christians over the years because it forces us to recognize our battle with our flesh. Unless your church tradition is liturgical, confession like this is probably unusual for you to express within musical worship.

2. "There's a grace too powerful to name...Forgiveness. Can you imagine?" - "It's Quiet Uptown" - Hamilton

Ok, I'm cheating a little on this one. Early on in the song they mention "there's suffering too terrible to name", as the song (and story) progresses, there is "grace too powerful to name". And then as the Hamilton's reconcile, the Chorus singers remark - "Forgiveness. Can you imagine". Maybe I'm out in left field but ever since the first time I heard the song, I've been convinced that the grace too powerful to name actually is named - Forgiveness.

I was fully aware of the legendary status of the Hamilton play since it hit Broadway. I'm not a musical guy really so I didn't make a point to purchase super-expensive tickets 6 months in advance to go see a show in a distant city. I was aware of the basic subject matter and story. But when I finally watched it this summer, it was this narrative turn that hit me right in the feels. I won't fully spoil all the details, needless to say that there is something gloriously Christlike in the conclusion of the play. And much of it embodied by this song.  I also have to agree with the Youtube video that described this song as compelling it's audience to "ugly cry". That pretty much was my experience.

1. "And we will come back home, home again!" - From Now On - The Greatest Showman

I love this song for two reasons really. It's a rousing conclusion to a musical movie that I was surprisingly entertained by. P.T. Barnum has come to the end of his rope and realizes what is truly important.  I also like how easy it is to co-opt into a spiritual song about our hope of eternity. In a generic way, Barnum's character arc reflects the redemptive arc all Christ-followers experience both with their salvation and their daily walks. And we can all look expectantly ahead when we will be Home. I did find a few "Christianized" videos of this song literally being co-opted by youth groups and the like, which sort of makes me roll my eyes. That fact notwithstanding, I still appreciate the spiritual notes lying beneath the surface. 

Music Mondays: Arresting Lyrics

Last week, I introduced this series and kicked it off with a number of Rich Mullins' lyrics that I find startlingly profound and emotionally powerful.

There are several other artists and categories I plan to feature but as I got into organizing and arranging them all, I realized it will take a bit more thought and time than I anticipated.

So for this week, I thought I'd go with an easier one, Hillsong. I am certainly not familiar with their entire catalog and am certainly aware that they have been criticized for a number of different things. For better, or worse, this Australian-founded outfit took commercialized modern worship. They are significantly different than Mullins if you wanted to compare these back to back. But boy have they written some great songs with lyrics that really stand out.

4. "On a hill you created, Light of the world abandoned in darkness to die" - So Will I (100 Billion X)

This song is unique both for it's lack of chorus and how it seamlessly blends biblical themes from Genesis to the Gospels.

I could easily include the lines that follow "and as you speak 100 billion failures disappear. Where you lost your life so I could find it here, if you left the grave behind you so will I". Really the entire stanza always resonates with me. And the particular point it makes about Christ dying on the ground he helped create (Col. 1:15-16) - it is a perspective I hadn't considered before this song and one I will not soon forget.

3. Now this gospel truth of old, shall not kneel, shall not faint. By His blood and in His name, in His freedom I am free. For the love of Jesus Christ, who has resurrected me." - King of Kings

I originally thought of just the first line and then realized that it keeps building and building and crests with the joyous truth that all in Christ have been raised with him in glory (Rom. 6:4). This is a song about the victorious gospel and the praise of the one who has given that victory to us.

2. "Mountains bow down and the seas will roar at the sound of your name" - Shout to the Lord

The "original" Hillsong hit that felt like it drew you in to worship from the first time you heard it. Mountains bowing, seas roaring - what a way to convey the power of our God.

Admittedly, this song is repetitive. One verse and one chorus repeated several times. For me, it's like watching a great movie and then re-watching it a bunch more times to pick up on all the nuances and things you missed the first time. Repetition can be a weakness of modern worship music, but in this case I think it helps us better appreciate the truths contained within.

1. "You have no rival, you have no equal. Now and forever God you reign. Yours is the Kingdom, yours is the glory. Yours is the name above all names" - What a Beautiful Name

This entire verse deserves the top spot really. I especially like how they come back to this last half of the verse in the live renditions.

This may come off weird, but I think I have probably cherished this song and this verse in particular in the last couple years because of the many funerals I have had to officiate over the past 18-24 months. For me it has become a protest anthem. Death is our enemy, but it cannot hold a candle to our Lord and Savior.  What a powerful name it is!

Music Mondays: Arresting Lyrics

A pastor friend of mine recently used the words "arrested" to describe how he was caught up in singing a worship song. It was in a blog post or Facebook status or something - I can't find it to link to the fuller context - but his name is Tim Sprankle and he pastors the Leesburg Grace Brethren Church. I thought it was the perfect description of something I've experienced too. 

For me it usually happens in the car when I'm by myself and able to sing without shame with regards to my ill-tuned voice. I might get wrapped up in a song and all of the sudden come up on a lyric that stops me in my tracks. It's like the words are too holy to vocalize, too powerful to speak. Tears often well up and I take a deep breath to compose myself. 

It often happens with the same songs and the same lyrics. So that gave me the idea for a Music Monday series on "Arresting Lyrics"  - lines that I find emotionally powerful and profound. Not all of these cause me to ugly cry or anything, but they certainly have etched a powerful mark in my heart, soul, and mind.

This will stretch out over a couple of weeks, separated by my own categories. There are a few artists/bands that in my opinion deserve their own list. There will be a Miscellaneous week of assorted songs and artists too. Today, I've decided I have to start with one particular artist, Rich Mullins.

Mullins came up during the burgeoning age of Contemporary Christian Music in the 1980's. CCM was more or less birthed in the 70's but really hit it's stride when artists like Amy Grant, Sandi Patty, and Michael W. Smith emerged to help CCM become a profitable commercial business. Mullins was certainly a part of that generation, even doing early songwriting for Grant. But it soon became clear he would be "in but not of" the CCM world. From his lyrics to his lifestyle, everything about him signaled there was something different going on. He was tragically killed in an auto accident in 1997 that shocked his peers and his fans, leaving a gaping hole in CCM which no longer had its most passionate voice calling for honest spirituality and helping the marginalized. As time continues to pass, his work continues to resonate as these powerful lyrics attest.

So without further ado, here are what I consider to be Rich Mullin's most "arresting lyrics":

7. "Judgement and wrath He poured out on Sodom, Mercy and grace He gave us at the cross. I hope that we have not too quickly forgotten that our God is an awesome God" - Awesome God

"Awesome" is a word that's been overused and drained of it's full meaning by pop culture. And if you look close enough, you can see the same has happened to this, Mullins' signature song. Here in the second verse, he deftly captures two complimentary aspects of God's character - judgment and grace. I know most audiences will just want to recite the memorable chorus but they'd also do well to contemplate the lesser known verses.

6. "Sometimes I think of Abraham and how one star he saw had been lit for me" - Sometimes by Step

This is another classic that has probably been overplayed by churches and Christian radio. And another made popular because of its chorus - in fact, there is live version on YouTube (not the one linked above) - where he admits writing the verses after his friend wrote the chorus because he liked the chorus so much. 

This line jumped out to me only recently as I was preaching through Romans while also revisiting some of Mullins' music on the side. Romans 4 connects the Abrahamic Covenant of Genesis 12/15/17 to the New Testament Church - so that through faith in Christ, we can all call Abraham "Father", bloodlines notwithstanding. This lyric takes the detail of Gen. 15:5 and makes it personal - really putting it in a way I hadn't thought of before. 

5. "And your grace rings out so deep, it makes my resistance seem so thin" - Hold Me Jesus

For the longest time, I assumed the line ended "my resistance seems so small". It is really not an important detail but Mullins certainly makes the perfect contrast. This is a song of beautifully written contrasts that exemplifies genuine humility and brokenness.  

Check out the link for an incredible two minute introduction. 

4. "I may falter in my steps, but never beyond your reach" - Sometimes by Step

I might pair this line with one from "If I Stand" - "If I stand, let me stand on the promise that you will pull me through. If I can't, let me fall on the grace that first brought me to you."  

If you watched the intro to the "Hold me Jesus" video, this all fits with Rich's willingness to live freely and risk falling rather than conform to some outward legalistic piety. This is what faith in Jesus is, this is what the life of faith looks like. And the "never beyond your reach" always seems to hit me hard. 

3. "It's so hot inside my soul, I swear there must be blisters on my heart" - Hold Me Jesus

Another lyric I always misunderstood. I thought it was "it's so hard inside my soul". This makes even more sense of course. Beyond that however, these lyrics in particular have always reminded me of the line from "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing" that says "prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. Take my heart Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for thy courts above." That is a favorite hymn of many and a verse that has spoke to many hearts over the decades.  I appreciate how Mullins captured the same sentiment and added theological beauty in his own way.

2.  "The stuff of earth competes for the allegiance I owe only to the giver of all good things." - If I Stand
"I'd rather fight you for something I don't really want, than take what you give that I need." - Hold me Jesus.

Millions of gallons of ink have been spilled and thousands of trees have been cut down so that theologians could try to explain the presence of sin in the life of a redeemed believer. Countless sermons have been given describing what Scripture calls "the flesh" or "sinful nature".  

In these two separate songs, with these two separate but similarly-themed lyrics, I think Mullins nails it rather efficiently and effectively. One acknowledges our own internal culpability. The other observes the battle against outward forces pulling us in the wrong direction. The better we understand these realities, the more dependent on God's grace we will be. I should really just stop analyzing though - the lyrics certainly speak for themselves. 

1. "If I sing let me sing for the joy that is born in me these songs. If I weep let it be as a man that is longing for his home" - If I Stand

This song has always made me want to learn how to play the piano. In my car, I feel like I can handle the vocals - but the piano would really put it all together. Daydreams aside, these two lines in particular are "play at my memorial"-type stuff. This song is a song of contrasts, as mentioned before. But the singing/weeping description is the kind of thing that really sums up the home-going of a Christ-follower.

The version linked above is of Jars of Clay from a tribute album that was produced in his honor after his death. I can remember learning about this album and the artists who were featured and hoping Jars would do this song. Dan Haseltine's voice was made to sing this song in my mind. Their version doesn't disappoint and actually exceeded my hopes with one small little thing at the end. Instead of "longing for his home", Haseltine simply sings "longing for home". The change is a subtle and fitting recognition that the presence of God is the Home we are all longing for. 

Next week we will feature another artist, though not with this many selections. Rich Mullins was a treasure that was only fully appreciated after he was gone. His work remains a great legacy. Not to his credit, but to the glorious grace of Jesus.

Music Mondays

Back when this Music Monday series idea popped in my head, it was this week's song that inspired it all. In the weeks since then, it hasn't continued to run in a loop like it had briefly back in June and for that I am thankful. 

Or am I? It is actually one of my favorite songs from "back in the day". Third Day released their second studio album Conspiracy No. 5 in 1997 which included the song below. The album itself feels like an intentional mirroring of Pearl Jam. It is a natural comparison some made after their first album mostly due to lead singer Mac Powell's vocals. In this album, the music itself seems to copy the popular 90's grunge band's style. 

As I remember it, this album was not as well received by the CCM world but that was not an opinion I or my buddies shared. I could still jam to this song if I still had the cassette and still owned a cassette player (yes I am old). 

Anyway, "Gomer's Theme" is still a jam and I don't mind all that much when it does get stuck in my head.

Music Mondays

I took a break for a week, but just a reminder - Music Mondays has been highlighting some songs I find really easy to get stuck in my head. Specifically, songs that I have even found playing on repeat in my head as I wake up in the morning.

This week's feature song isn't so much a radio hit as a radio commercial jingle. I have listened to 670 The Score sports radio out of Chicago for maybe close to a decade now. One of their longtime sponsors his Kars For Kids. 

It's a charity that takes your used vehicles and resells/disposes of them and puts the money towards youth educational programs. I actually donated my lemon-of-a-car VW Cabrio a couple years ago. It was a pretty simple and straightforward process. 

All of that is just besides the point. Listen to this little ditty and tell me it doesn't get seared into your brain upon the first listen.

It is such a unique jingle that my 2.5 year old son recognizes it when it's on the radio. Tbh, that's probably a sign that I listen to the station too much.